Because of you! ( If his throat wasn't so raw, he would be yelling but his voice is just a rasp when he tries. ) Kaoru died. Kanaya and Touko are gone too... it's just. It's just us! If Sonia fails I can't--

( Coughing and rocking some. Everything hurts so much. He can't think, he's in pain, he can't sleep, he can't eat, everything is so awful. The symptoms are severe but there's something else bothering him. )

I can't let them down. I can't let them down. I can't let them down.

( It feels just like home and he's not sure if he's talking about Sonia and the others or his people anymore. )